worst december ever

it was spent being sick and under house arrest.

because of being sick, i don't get to stay out late at night

or sleep over anywhere.

because of being sick, i don't get to go to the

biggest event of the year FOR FREE,

that i was looking forward to since summer.

my whole christmas break got ruined.

it fucking sucks.

but somehow, i'm still somewhat happy

and still excited for christmas.

i'm REALLY excited for saturday,

so i hope nothing ruins that for me.

oh no

i've got it bad

>.<

never in my life,

has a smile stopped my heart.

someone kill me please

Friday the 13th

most epic one of my life.

started out as a normal day,

got slowly worse throughout it,

then me dominic jake and matt think its a good idea

to smoke in a neighborhood that isnt ours in a dead end,

some faggy neighbors call the cops, we get busted,

BUT DONT GET IN TROUBLE.

fucking awesome, but fucking terrifying nonetheless.

go to dominics, i rape at mario kart,

and then come home, and now im sleepy.

i had almost forgotten

the feeling of excitement to see someone ^.^

i forgot how cute of a feeling it is.

all butterfly-y and whatnot.

i need to stop

watching pro-life and peta propaganda videos.

they just use scare tactics to get people to believe what they believe.

people shouldn't have to be scared into a certain belief,

they should just truly believe in the cause.

vegheads, you go giiirrrll!

pro-life, keep 'em alive!

as for me, i'm gonna go eat a burger and stay unpregnant.

another high adventure

with ariel a couple weekends ago,

and we found Merlin, not Zoltar

"dude, who the fuck is Merlin?"

"i don't want him, where's Zoltar?!"

this was the first picture with my monroe :D

what the fuck, universe

my car is broken,

my phone got stolen at my place of WORK,

and just to piss me off with a minor problem,

my name tag fell off and is lost forever.

i don't know what i did to deserve this,

but fuckingshitballscocksuckingmotherfucker >:O

i can't catch a break lately, its not fair.

Tuesday Mornings

are going to be as good as it was this week.

i'm going to wake up earlier, shower and get ready,

smoke a lil bowl, get coffee, and go to school.

i might get a bagel or deposit money on some days

or whatever, so that would just make it better :)

I'm surprised

at how easily amused i get.

i got to leave work early, which made me happy,

i smoked a bowl, which made me happier,

and now flapjack is on.

Having hardly any free time makes me

appreciate little things alot more.

the little simple things i used to be used to

makes me really happy.

i like that feeling.

caged

in "the playpen" once again.

goodbye summer.

goodbye freedom.

goodbye often smokeouts.

goodbye trips to hollywood and staying till tuesday

for no reason.

goodbye sleeping late everyday.

goodbye week day beach trips.

goodbye full time job.

and goodbye carefree way of life,

it's time to buckle down as a senior.

two cheers!

my birthday was awesome :D<3

i've survived

another year of my life.

so happy birthday to me :D

i love how birthdays are one of the few days

where you feel loved by everyone,

its a really nice feeling :)

people that hardly even know you say 

happy birthday and wish you well.

i hope my party is a success in the sense

that everyone i care about shows up,

there isn't any drama,

and i have fun.

i would like a good birthday this year since it's

my first one in california, and my past 3 birthdays

have sucked.

turning 14, almost everyone forgot my birthday.

turning 15, horribly deathly sick.

turning 16, mild drama and concern and jealousy.

LETS MAKE IT A GOOD ONE FOR TURNING 17

"an awkward morning,

is better than a lonely night"

i like, i like

well hello

miss employed!

i made $45 on tips tonight, and it was nice to have earned

my own money for a change.

plus, that was just tips.

tips erry day, check erry week.

p.s. you guys are stupid. each and every one of you.

i think that quite possibly

maybe i'm falling for you..

.. PINK FLOYD: THE WALL

maximum capacity 420

it was definitely a sign that

we were meant to be there

THE REUNITE OF THE SMOKING DREAM TEAM WAS AMAZING!!

welcome back miss ashweed 7/12/09

:D

Amusement

boredom and amusement at it's finest :)

now, i aint religious,

but i'm hoping to god that i pass my drug test.

i won't find out the results for a few days

and the suspense is killing me.

dude bro

i want to smoke haha

i want to smoke and draw and hang out with my friends

and not detox anymore and just start my job already

and not be grounded and lose weight and go to the beach

and pierce my belly button and get a monroe

hopefully, i can accomplish all of these before summer ends

the epic failure of my weekend

i had to make a very difficult decision,

and thought about it long and hard,

and against my gut, i chose the wrong answer

with high hopes.

i thought i had a flawless plan, but now i'm paying for it.

EDC, the reason i went to santa monica, also to see ariel,

was such a sad process, i can't even believe it happened.

the money spent, the hours getting ready, the hyped attitudes,

WASTED.

the tickets i was charged for, were failed to be given to

ariel and i because of reasons unbeknownst to either of us.

we spent three hours going from ticket booth, to ticket booth,

only to be told that the other ticket booth would have them.

bullshit. 

then we were turned away by "Customer Service", 

aka douchebag grooveticket emplyees,

to wait to be picked up at a McDonalds across the street,

IN SOUTH CENTRAL,

being tortured by the music playing from somewhere

we were supposed to be.

this weekend was one huge fail.

the only good thing about it was that i got to chill 

with my hippy sister ariel, and i was at the beach.

i love  you ariel, thankyou for everything this weeekendd.

i love you mary jane

"she never complains, when i hit mary"

oh, how i miss you so.

this evil monopoly called the job industry

has separated us temporarily,

but soon i will return.

and when my epic comeback is in sight,

you will come to me in epic portions.

you will make me happier than ever imaginable.

you shall bring your other lovers together

to join in what might as well be an orgy 

with you as the star.

forgive me for being away for so long,

you never left my thoughts.

sooo excited :D

for this:

wiff ariel :D and hopefully alysssssaaa!

List of Wants: (to be continued)

-job

-tongue ring

-belly button ring

-monroe (?)

-various tattoos

-long hair again!

welcome to

THE FIRST DAY OF SUMMER :D

sir

i would do horrible, horrible things to you >;D

mmmmmmmmmmmmm<3333333

you'll never know

about how much karma you still deserve!

or how no one likes you!

or how riding a bike every day is only making it worse!

or that when you turn on people, you're gonna get fucked!

i hope you DO get busted some day, maybe you'll learn.

but probably not, so prepare yourself.

what the fuck, mann

i step one foot into texas,

and my whole body gets thrown into drama.

i dont even have drama in california.

stupid, stupid boy. you partially fucked up my spring break,

but didnt ruin it so SUCK IT.

it makes me really appreciative that i live in california

and dont have to deal with shitty people like this.

i miss california soooo badly D:

hyped on life

for tomorrow morninggggg

SHRROOOMIIEESS! for the first time<3333

mustachio

behold

not doing awesome, not doing bad,

but pretty good can sum up my life.

a Haiku:

From this dream i wake

to find you gone from my arms

from where you were once